I once dreamed about settling down.
Living in one place and making my life stable and secure.
With someone I want to spend my life together.
With my friends living close to me.
However, I realized the dream was just an illusion.
It is a dream that I cannot have, for now or for a long time in my future.
Last ten years since I first moved to Tokyo,
my life has been about traveling around, moving around the world.
Tokyo, Ottawa, Toronto, a small village in Egypt,
Paris, Cairo, London,
Nagoya, Santa Monica, Luxor…
I have not lived in a place more than two years.
Where have I travelled? I don’t even want to list them up…
I was tired of unsettled life,
building up new friendship,
learning new cultures and societies,
Tired of experiencing new.
Tired of feeling “home” wherever I am.
I didn’t want to go anywhere any longer after I came to London.
I wished I could have stayed there.
It is not my life if I stop now, however.
Not knowing where I am going after a year or two is scary.
Starting a life in a new place is always lonely.
But this is the life I choose.
Someone says he cannot move with different reasons.
Someone traps himself in a place with made-up excuses.
And he struggles.
He struggles with his “unmovable” situation.
He struggles with his fears
missing opportunities to change his life, making it better.
But he stays in one place for no reasons but excuses.
Fortunately or unfortunately,
I am not good at finding/making the excuses to stay.
I cannot miss the best opportunity given to me.
I do not want to compromise and
choose the second best opportunity to stay in one place.
I am young and flexible - and I am lucky.
with confidence that I am able to live in different
societies and cultures with different people,
with confidence that I am able to understand
differences in peoples, if it is not fully,
with the heart to enjoy exploring something new and something different,
experiencing all,
with the curiosity to explore myself in different experiences,
And with supports of my friends whom I met every different part of the world
- in addition to of my family -
who makes my life rich, comfortable and happy.
Someone said he doesn’t belong anywhere – only to time and space.
I say, I belong everywhere
The time may come in the future
when I want to settle down with good reasons.
Until the time come,
I let the opportunity to feel secure and settled go on a vacation.
I stay being a globetrotter until I find the right place